Samhain is normally a very spiritual time for me but I feel my path has been meandering some lately. I can’t seem to focus on it, there is so much else to do. I need to set myself aside some time to work through the spiritual matters I have been ignoring. I feel clogged up and stale. I need to find that time. I haven’t written anything about this sabbat this time (or anything at all for awhile in this blog) but maybe that is the whole point of it. It is time to re-evaluate where I am and decide where I need to go from here. I feel this has been coming for awhile, in some ways this is very overdue. If I am not spiritually balances I am not physically balances and my whole life is affected. In my dreams I see a clock and it is ticking, letting me know a decision must be made.

Spiritually, I feel I am just existing and not moving forward on my path. I am still at the crossroads and ever step seems difficult. The longer I wait the heavier my feet get. Christianity was easier, there is a book to follow and someone to tell you what to do. Christianity is not my path though, it has never felt right for me. My path there is no bible, no priest, no church – there is just me and my own choices. Guides will only show you the way for so long, at one point the next choice falls on you and only you. I realize, I am only now truly getting started and it is scary. I am not afraid to admit that.

So Samhain is here, decision time is here. I hope you all have a wonderful Samhain.