May I silence the noise so I can hear
What lies beneath me.
May I close my eyes so I can see
What lies beneath me.
May I be still so I can behold
What lies beneath me.
Michael and I stayed up late last night, brainstorming an idea of mine (which is now ours) to create a runes set based on animals in their glyph form, we have 54 different creatures to explore at the moment. Now comes the long process of exploring each animals and see how it related to us and how it can be interpreted when caste. Then designing how each should look and actually putting them on actual runes.
My creative and spiritual natures tend to mingle quite a bit. I use to try to keep they separate but both of them are such a vital part of who I am I have found it to be pretty impossible. If I forsake my spiritual nature my creativity dies. If I ignore my creative side I feel my soul stagnates. If I try to create something without adding any of my spiritual self to it, if feels dead and lifeless to me, so much so that even other people notice. My heart is just not in it.
Sometimes I wonder if it is a blessing or curse. Sometimes spiritual and creative seem like two mouths to feed, and not always at the same time. It makes me wish I could slow down time. Still I think my art is at its best, and I feel at my best, when both sides are balanced and working together.
Part of me wants they to be separate, my artist side to make money and my spiritual side to enrich the soul. I do not think it is meant to be, and truly I am not sure, beneath it all, that I want it to be like that. Things like the animal runes, I do not see as a distract from my profitable art. It is more of a long term quest that involves art but mostly just communing with various animal spirits. It is something for quite evenings and mediations and it is not important to me if they are ever monetarily profitable. They will be profitable for Michael and my path, which at the end of the day is what matters.
When our times comes and we pass beyond the veil, how much money we made will not matter – we cannot take anything but knowledge with us.
I give myself over to land and sea
So that I maybe be one
With what lies beneath me.