Experiencing Wholeness

Jaspenelle
by Jaspenelle
Tue
18
Sep
2007
1:21pm
Posted in sub-blogs:
Tagged as
8 Comments
The wind is blowing cold
Think we lost our way tonight
Think we lost our hope to sorrow

Feels like were all alone
Running further from what’s right
And there are no more heroes to follow

So what are we becoming?
Where did we go wrong?

stormy sky
The weather this morning seemed to punctuate my fluctuating mood. It was dark and raining. The wind was cold but still the sky was peeking through breaks in the clouds. The sun’s warmth did not reach me but at least it’s light did. That is enough to take hope in isn’t it?

I received an email from my aunt this morning about psalm 61 and the emotional trials we face in life. It was comforting to know that other people, no matter what faith, struggle with these trials too and learn to rise above them. These trials are part of the human experience, not just my own, and somehow that gives me hope.

Hope is such an important emotion to me, it lights my path back to a place of love and wholeness. I wish I could live inside the experience of wholeness all the time. I wish that the experience of lack never cast it’s shadow across my heart. I know that I need to experience both though and I think I know why.

If I never experienced pain and loss and wrath and sadness, I would never truly know what it felt like to experience love and fulfillment and peace and happiness. I would have nothing to compare. I would not know what to fight my way back to and live for. This is why I believe in fate as well as free choice, fate will always intervene when I lesson is needed, but we can choose how we handle it when it comes.

My aunt says I am a good person. I hope she is right. I hope that we are all good people at heart and that even if we have strayed from that path, that we can still find redemption through helping each other. I do not want to grow old only to find I have grown spiteful and jaded; I want to live my life knowing that wholeness is always there for me to hold onto and share.

I want to rise today,
And change this world.
Oh won’t you rise today,
And change this world.

~ Alter Bridge : Rise Today ~

8 Comments

  1. Aunt Ruth
    Posted Tuesday, September 18, 2007 at 5:33 pm | Permalink

    Those clouds are a good metaphor for how we feel some days. But the sun is always behind them. People do resisted exercises with weights to increase their muscle strength. Resistance that comes with troubling times can increase our emotional and spiritual strength if we persevere. Well written post. ((hug))

  2. the_becka
    Posted Tuesday, September 18, 2007 at 5:45 pm | Permalink

    First off, awesome post. :) Secondly, you are a good, sensitive, and thoughtful person.

    “I do not want to grow old only to find I have grown spiteful and jaded”

    I think that as long as you recognize these traits, chances are that you won’t become that type of person.

  3. Alex T.
    Posted Wednesday, September 19, 2007 at 12:08 am | Permalink

    Keep your chin up! :)

    Btw, what awesomely shit weather you are having… I will trade you some Dubai sunshine for those rain clouds.

  4. Jaspenelle
    Posted Wednesday, September 19, 2007 at 7:38 am | Permalink

    Thanks Alex :)

    Have to decline on the weather trade though, I am rather partial to our rain clouds we have been having a drought here. I’ll send you some when we get extra ;)

  5. Jaspenelle
    Posted Wednesday, September 19, 2007 at 7:39 am | Permalink

    *hugs back* thank you

  6. Jaspenelle
    Posted Wednesday, September 19, 2007 at 7:40 am | Permalink

    I hope that recognizing them is the first step to avoiding becoming them.
    Hmm there is that hope word again… *hugs*

  7. jett
    Posted Wednesday, September 19, 2007 at 9:43 am | Permalink

    Good post. Experiences like the one you’re going through will make stronger if you let it. And I think it is also important to recognize that your experience will not only allow you to recognize hope in other people/things but also to act as an agent of hope for others when the need arises. Hope that makes sense.

  8. autumn zephyr
    Posted Saturday, September 22, 2007 at 5:09 pm | Permalink

    You are a good person. Never doubt it.

    This was a really beautiful and thought provoking post. But I just can’t get past that picture. I LOVE it! I want to be there and experience that! Grey skies and smoldering clouds are the best. They make me come alive like nothing else will.